Life has been rather full lately. My husband and I are both working and taking care of our two young children (1yo and almost 3yo), our house is in a constant state of chaos with never-ending crumbs and stickiness, the to-do list rarely gets checked off, and we are often so tired there is little room for play. This is the “thick of it” with raising two little ones and trying to also balance our careers.
And… I have come to realize lately that life will always feel out of control. Don’t you feel that? It seems that everyone I talk to and work with — we are all wishing we felt more control in our lives, and we often do things to help us feel like we do. But we all know it’s simply impossible to actually be in control of life. Life is like a wild stallion and we are holding on for the beautiful, sometimes scary, ride.
So, what do we do with this perpetual need for control which we will never have? I think we shift our goal. Instead, what if we looked beyond the out-of-controlness for moments of gratitude, serenity, wonder, joy? (You might be saying, yeah, yeah, heard it a million times. And you’re right. But also…)
“But the simplest and deepest way to make who we are at one with the world is through the kinship of gratitude.” - Mark Nepo
Giving thanks is something that makes you pause, look around you, and notice what is connecting you to life. We can do it in the middle of a storm, when we are overwhelmed with emotion, and when we come back down from an experience of being flooded. And it does not have to be profound. And it does not cancel out the difficulty, challenge, depression, struggle, etc.
But being able to see through the chaos and find glimmers of hope is a practice that will help us get through life.
The other day my son was painting with his new water colors and after it had dried, I looked at it awhile. Then I saw salmon swimming in a current. So, during his nap I added some salmon to the page. And it simply made me smile and sense a little satisfaction. (I felt somewhat guilty for not asking his permission to do this, but when he saw it later I saw a little smile appear on his face too.)
Where are those moments for you to pause and see something that gives you even just a little joy? Do you ever try and find the piece of sea glass among the rocks?